.i'm letting go of all my downer thoughts.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

the starting line.

i've been thinking that these past few months, i just haven't seen what i've done to myself. i let myself be caught up with false emotions, false affections and false hopes. i don't need that anymore. it's time that i let everything go. i won't miss you ever again. here lies whatever we have and i'm letting it burn to the ground so the ashes will fly away everywhere. yes, they'd still be there but just as distant memories, nothing more. here's to a new start. no ex-loves/flings will ever come between me and myself. i'm leaving this blog behind, too much memories. you can come visit if you want to read old posts.

this is what i want. a change. a new starting line.

http://emotionsunderfelt.blogspot.com

goodbye old posts. it was nice to know i could put into words half of what i felt this past few years. this would be my 712th and last post.

Envy drowned in words at 17:08

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Friday, June 16, 2006

it's hard to act surprised.

i fucking hate those donut boys but i can't say that i'm surprised.

i might go to KL to visit Azza! this is super exciting. haha

England won. Damn.

It's hard to give up someone you never thought you'd leave.

Envy drowned in words at 05:56

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Friday, June 09, 2006

i will promise myself i won't care.

exams are officially over. but you know what's officially started? WORLD FUCKING CUP! As we speak now, Ecuador & Poland are doing a half time. I think i'm going to buy the official World Cup guide. Germany won the first match. But...their defense and Lehmann was kinda bad. I cracked my voice from screaming too much.

Been trying to delete my myspace but i dont know why it wont do it. Bah.

I love my boys & girls <3

Envy drowned in words at 20:50

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Friday, June 02, 2006

and you shake your head just like you know what i mean.

man, it's been so fucking hectic this past month. i don't even have time to update anything. I've been to UK and back since i last posted.

lost a benefit. gained a friend.

i miss being alive. it's crazy what exams could lead you to. i want to make it up but how? any suggestions would be good.

life, bring me something more than this.

in order to feel, i need to let go. always remember to let go. the car's moving and i'm always at the back seat. it's time for me to take over the wheels. i can't just let chances pass me by. every day, lying in bed and doing nothing just means another opportunity i let pass by.

i just found out that everyone thought that i was always a bad-tempered person until like a few years ago. it's amusing. i never really thought that.

i've been drugged and i never even knew it. apparently, drugs work more than anger management.

how i wish i could use these fingers or the lens of something mechanical to tell the world how i feel.

Envy drowned in words at 06:08

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

kukan menyesali.

i'm sorry. for everything. <3

Envy drowned in words at 09:37

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

gone.

mel's working during panic!'s gig in cardiff as we speak right now. i hope she gets me their signatures. or just Ryan. cuz he writes the lyrics.

I miss cardiff. :( i've been studying maths and Elit. It's kinda depressing but i guess it'll be over in june. i was supposed to fly back to UK tonight but apparently my ticket hasn't confirmed so i can't do shit about it.

Ina is a potential buyer for my Stevo the Sidekick II. Alright. <3

Envy drowned in words at 18:41

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

i was weak.

brunei's been...eventful. i guess. meeting friends and family. making new friends. CJ & Dayat has the same phone as i do so duno...thought that was pretty cool. i kinda miss my room in cardiff. and....i cant think of anything to say right now. stewie's voice is filling my head <3

Envy drowned in words at 17:33

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