Thursday, April 22, 2004
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY CJ BOYD ROBB!
Countdown to term break: 51 days!
It was a REALLY bad day at school today. I stayed up late until 3am to do CJ's bday card only to let it be taken away by the discipline teacher or something. Called on us and lectured us about morals and things like that. And then about the NSOS page, it's making me paranoid but if it's already gone, it won't be able to be viewed. I think. That totally killed my day. The paranoia, i mean. I hate that feeling. I cried for like the 8563265743968430412th time since school started. I just don't belong there, it makes me sad. I want to leave. SEPTEMBER, COME HERE!!!! I actually cried for the first time in the car in front of my mom and I practically begged my mom to let me stop schooling and she told me to ask my dad *snorts* can you sing...Simple Plan's Perfect? Daniel told me a funny story about how he got sent out of class by Kak Jo just now. Haha. Kak Jo said that he 'doesn't have factual content, just fancy writing' on his essay writing. Lmao. Sweet. Daniel made the 'CJ, Happy 17th Birthday' on the birthday card i made for CJ. So thanx Daniel.
Anyway, i think it works. Me not liking him anymore. Of cos i do stare at him sometimes, i mean i've liked him long enough so i'm going to do this 'unliking' him step by step. I had a dream about my classmate when i took a nap just now. It was kinda nice haha. Gave me a nice, warm feeling and NO, it does not involve any sexual explicit content.
I miss my sister. At least, if she's here, there's something ALIVE to go home to. I just feel so alone. At least, she makes my life ALIVE. Eventhough, she sometimes annoys me with her constant 'SHUT THAT MUSIC OFF!'s and leaving the tv on when we sleep and then, there's our fights but yeah, i think we've got one of the greatest sister bonds ever. I'd do a lot of things i won't do for other people for her. I mish her. Come home!!! 50 days is a long time. :'(
I feel bad for feeling like shit on CJ's birthday but i can't help it. I'm sorry CJ!
Lol, my mom just asked me where the M&S chocolate biscuits were. Haha, let's just say i could've pointed to my stomach. Funny. My aunty gave that to me so i didn't know other people wanted to eat it too. Haha. My mom's watching a chinese movie that ends at 8pm and my aunty just called and i kinda little-white-lied to her and told her that my mom is praying. Hehe. My bad. Hey, my entry ends up in a happy note. This is good.
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