.i'm letting go of all my downer thoughts.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

will you dance with me tonight?

I feel slightly guilty. It's a vicious cycle, i know it's going to bite me back in the ass but i can't help it, sometimes i need attention. But know that, i am still very sorry for everything i ever did to make you and you and you and all of you hurt. New York's not so far away. Of course it is. It's a dream that will haunt me forever. I wish, i always will wish. Doesn't it bother you that we can't do anything about it? It bothers me but i am willing to grasp this with a good grip and let it go with a good push. It doesn't matter how long or how short, what matters is i've felt it. I'm content in losing like this. You'll always win with me.

So when I sit down and write about the boy i just never have enough time to get over, i'd think of you and how much more i could have loved you and how much more you should have felt for me. I really could have loved you more.

Envy drowned in words at 05:57

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